A Kingdom with No King

Monarchy in the 21st century. Does it exist? In the world where democracy and voting prevails, monarchy is rarely heard of or talked about anymore. Somehow, some kind of way, something interesting struck my senses tonight regarding this topic. National Geographic presented a documentary about Royalty in this day and age. My first impression was rather surprising because I thought I would just tune that off but as I gave it another second or so, I was swallowed by it. It’s been a while since I blogged some random thoughts but I would have to say this was pretty random.
There are only a handful of royal families that are reigning today. My king from my country being one of the few, I realized that might be why I was intrigued. I never quite paid much attention to that while I was growing up for the 17 years of my life while I was there. Now I’m in a country where democracy virtually found an experimental lab to create itself. As I saw the different kingdoms that were represented in the documentary that I mentioned earlier, there was some sort of feeling of pride for the kingdoms that have kings, England being one of the most famous one but the one that captivated me was Uganda. This kingdom was ruled by a king until the people decided that they need to overturn the King due to political reasons. He was attacked and was put in exile by his own people. When he saw what the ruthless ruler that overturned him did to his people, his heart broke and died 3 years since the exile. Now the interesting twist to this was that the people realized that the massacre had to end and they fought back to get the monarchy back in place. A few bloodshedding years later (Think "Hotel Rwanda"), the son of the deceased king was enthroned. He’s been ruling ever since. The people love him. He has no executive power to rule but rather was in place as a symbol of parliament. The people had security knowing that the king was alive and well even though he does not rule them directly. However, his schedule everyday is filled with charity and endorsement of cleaner water, sanitary system, education, etc. The people revered him. They are not forced to bow down but one man puts it the best “It’s like if the ground that I’m kneeling on before him was to crack open, I would want to make sure my face is at the lowest point of the pit before my king.” When was the last time you have heard of that from somebody’s mouth freely and willingly toward an authoritative figure?
What about the Kingdom of God? It reminded me of Jesus when He walked on this earth. It also brought light to the many books in the Old Testament about kings and kingdoms. It breathed life and sense into what we would blabber lightly during a typical old traditional hymn on Sunday. What does it really mean to have “every knee bow, every tongue confessed that He is Lord.” and “King of Kings and Lord of Lords.”?
Perhaps in the 21st century our desire to be independent and have our ignorant uneducated opinions about how a country should be ruled, has tainted what was meant to be sacred, revered and above all, secure in Freedom itself? Perhaps there is something truly magical about serving a king and seeing the kingdom prevail? Perhaps we were wired to yearn for a King to rule in our hearts, to have a sense of pride and wait in long hours in miserable weather with presents only for a king just to catch a glimpse of the King himself?

A Mark, A Brand & A Scar

It's been different and rather difficult not being in ministry because it seems like it's the only thing I know. It was my comfort zone, born and bred. On the flip side, I have been enjoying the down time of just chilling out and enjoying the non-commitment of hectic schedules, as well as getting back to the word and rediscovering God in a whole new different perspective. How do I define myself now outside of the skin of my minitries? How do I identify myself without the layer of epidermis of leadership?

But without fail as usual, God opens a brand new door right after I obediently shut the other. While in Houston Bush Int Airport on September 14th, 2006, I was talking to Steve Morrow about how much I miss ministry particularly worship and music itself. Then I received a call from Andrew Ogea who's the worship leader for a young adults ministry in the New Orleans Metro area asking if I would consider helping him play the piano for a rendition of "Fix You" by Coldplay for the next gathering. After much prayer and consideration, I was confident that this was the next step. It's been almost 3 months now since I started playing with these guys and it's been a blast. The talent and heart are admirable and I am encouraged to know that this is where God has led me as of now. Who knows what's the next step. That's the best and sometimes worst part about faith. It does not know any boundary. It longs to exist as the core of hope....

Whatever it is, check out www.himni.org for more info..


Him & I October 12th 2006


Eric Thien & Andrew Ogea


Adam "Edwardo"


Brandon Bagby


Mark


Yours Truly






Friends

Guys Flag Football

I can't help but smile when I think about how friendships come and go. Certain ones last for a lifetime and I won't go there because experts have spent countless hours studying that topic, and I'm not about to exhaust myself analyzing that. However, as a side note, I do have to mention that certain friendships that resurfaced recently, namely friends back in Malaysia. For some (ie: Mathan, Feli, Nicky, Jade, Laine, Chaiyen, Ting, Ewe, InnWinn, etc.) there was a period of silence but it's great to see how we just pick up where we left off. For others (ie: Kim, Viv, Diana, Derek, Chyihwang, etc.), these guys were buddies back in the elementary days. I have not seen or talked to most of them for almost 14 years and it’s definitely a surprise to connect with them again in the cybersphere.
That was a pretty long side note but I guess it’s something that I have been thinking about today after one of them appeared in my dreams last night. How odd.


So here are some new friends that I met recently. Interesting bunch. Not much time invested but who knows? These are guys from the Vineyard church here in Kenner during one Saturday morning playing some Flag Football, a game that did not quite make it to the shores where I grew up in. But the game is an addictive sports I have to say. I thought the camera man did a fantastic job capturing some cool shots that I will never in my life imagine possible for my less-than-physical-self doing at this time.





Priceless!

Here are some friends that I recently reunited with since graduating from college. It’s definitely been a while but it certainly was good seeing them!

Michelle Danica


Meagan!

7 years Departure

I had to write this down. It's a milestone of my life, an event that marks the start of a new beginning. It's not a glamorous change, or one of those huge ordeals. In fact, it has brought me back to my roots, back to my first love. July 31st, 2006. It finally happened. Never quite thought this day will ever come this way. I have always known myself. I was never a quitter. No doubt, everything in the flesh was screaming “quitter” but I recognize His voice, that peace. I have always envisioned that the only way I would be uprooted from my ministry is if God Himself moved me. Perhaps through my job which is very much at risk of a promotion to another city of some sort. For the longest time (approx. 3 years) I have questioned, “Is it time yet?”. The reply was often similar. A firm but gentle “No, not yet”. I have always wondered, what’s the “yet” for? After Katrina, again, “Is it my time?” “No, not yet”. For 3 years, I strived through the thick and thin. The bitter sweetness of serving His people. My people. My dearest ones. For 3 years, I was faced with situations that did not flow fluidly. The previous 4 years was such an awesome time of my life. Granted, it did not always flow fluidly, but day by day, I saw Him opening doors I did not imagine were there! Perhaps I was excited to be in a new environment. Perhaps the excitement of being in the different country hasn’t sunk in yet. Regardless of the underlining reasons, I can’t deny that I was right at where He wanted me to be. My passion met His opportunity. But those days changed when He removed the key leaders from my life, which was my ministry. God still remained faithful through these years. I saw the growth that came as little as there were. It definitely has been a wrestle. Starting a full time job did not help either. I have also considered my full time job. Could I possibly juggle both my full time job and my other full time job in ministry? I did it for the pass years. I surely can keep doing it.

But while I was away for both trips to Malaysia and my training trips, I was gone for a total period of 7 weeks. For those first 4 weeks in Malaysia, I learned a couple of things:
1) I’m dispensable
2) I’m replaceable
3) The best worship happens when I’m all poured out.

Yea, it does sound very negative and probably being too hard on myself. But until I was able to swallow these humbling pills, I couldn’t accept the fact that the ministry could go on without me. I was constantly fighting the thought of “what I would do if I was in charge”. Stephanie laid it out straight. She let me have it. She knew me long enough to know that I’m a perfectionist, a person who takes charge and expects nothing but the best. Sounds like good values right? Not in this context. It was hurting the people I was working with. I did not allow God to teach them and to work in them because I was in the way. Granted, I have done enough to establish a foundation but it’s time to go.

The following 3 weeks while I was away in the trip described below, I had a lot of time to think about this again. And somehow this time, it was a peaceful decision. I did not worry nor did I argue with Him. It was a simple…. “Ok Lord, here we go and I will just trust you”. I didn’t know where He was gonna lead me. I still don’t. But what I do know is I am first called to LOVE Him, and then His People. So for now, my job is to do just that.

It was difficult as I broke the news to Nick, the band, the leadership team, my life group and especially Mr. Russell. I felt like I was disappointing them because I had to let them down. But again, I knew inside what obedience meant. But it still didn’t make any sense. God knows how much I love these kids. God knows how much I loved what I was doing, my passion in seeing youth coming to know Christ and loving Him in worship. God knows how much I love playing the guitar. That very night on July 31st, 2006, I opened up Oswald Chamber’s writings. The following passage floored me to my knees again in humbled confirmation:

"He comes where He commands us to leave. If you stayed home when God told you to go because you were so concerned about your own people there, then you actually robbed them of the teaching of Jesus Christ Himself. When you obeyed and left all the consequences to God, the Lord went into your city to teach, but as long as you were disobedient, you blocked His way. Watch where you begin to debate with Him and put what you call your duty into competition with His commands. If you say, "I know that He told me to go, but my duty is here," it simply means that you do not believe that Jesus means what He says.
He teaches where He instructs us not to teach. "Master . . . let us make three tabernacles . . ." ( Luke 9:33 ).
Are we playing the part of an amateur providence, trying to play God’s role in the lives of others? Are we so noisy in our instruction of other people that God cannot get near them? We must learn to keep our mouths shut and our spirits alert. God wants to instruct us regarding His Son, and He wants to turn our times of prayer into mounts of transfiguration. When we become certain that God is going to work in a particular way, He will never work in that way again.
He works where He sends us to wait. ". . . tarry . . . until . . ." (Luke 24:49 ). "Wait on the Lord" and He will work (Psalm 37:34 ). But don’t wait sulking spiritually and feeling sorry for yourself, just because you can’t see one inch in front of you! Are we detached enough from our own spiritual fits of emotion to "wait patiently for Him"? ( Psalm 37:7 ). Waiting is not sitting with folded hands doing nothing, but it is learning to do what we are told.
These are some of the facets of His ways that we rarely recognize."

Summer 2006 Trips

So it started on July 10th, Sarasota, FL. It has been some crazy weeks. Fun though. SJ brought me to the airport and we had coffee at 6am before catching the plane. I'm grateful for how much she helps me out. She's so funny and it definitely makes me smile when I think about her. Flight was rather boring and it was definitely interesting when I had to board a flight that I actually had to duck down low as I find my seat. (Needless to say, it's not a very common problem for me). This would mark the start of my summer training venture to interesting places in the US. I can't complain because I'm actually grateful to my company for investing so much into me. By the end of this blog you will find some interesting stats about my expense account.
Sarasota welcomed me with an interesting gesture....a marine tank filled with baby sharks. I couldn't pass it up but took some pics of it because I thought about SJ with her baby shark obsession. National Rental decided to be funny and gave me a friggin' purple chevy. What the heck???? That honestly messed up my roll. I was experiencing identity crisis. But I couldn't let that ruin the rest of my trip so whatever. The hotel was by the beach. It has a pretty cool view but I wasn't that all amazed by the condition of it.

Lido beach is a small beach community that caters to millionairs who have bad taste in fashion. However, I have to admit I did purchase a pair of sunglasses that cost me 300 green bucks. I couldn't passed it up because I needed a pair of sunglasses and the lady was kind enough to show me every pair of prada and bvlgari that she had...that would suit me.
The class was decent. Everything an inspiring engineer needs to know about Steam Turbines and Generators. I won't bother to put details here as it would definitely cause you to quit reading right here.

The night life: one would think that being a beach town in FL, many happenings could be found....I'd rather spent my nights in the hotel room if it wasn't for Donald who wants some company as he puts down 6 packs. I would have to say that there were many incidents where I met and chat with a couple of girls but it was just weird. There was Christy, Megan, Lindsay, and Michelle. All at different places and times but I guess it just didn't feel right continuing any long term relationships with them.



July 14th, 2006 - Head over to ATL to meet up with Josh and Tara. It was a good time as I got to meet up with Andy, Steen, Matt and Chelsea.
Spent Saturday night with Josh's best friend in his bachelor party. Don't worry, we split right after dinner before any typical bachelor party activities started. Had a good afternoon spent with Josh's parents.





July 16th, 2006 - Board the plane and flew to Milwaukee. Luggage was overweight so I had to cough up 25 bucks for the extra pounds, a mere 4.5lbs. That sucked. What sucked even more is when I got there at 10pm and discovered that they lost my luggage. So here I was, tired and nasty, spent the rest of the night without any change of clothes. My luggage decided to show up the next evening. I was grateful although it was just weird to have on the same change of clothes 2 days in a row. Class was a bore. By now, I had enough of Ray, our instructor. He's a roughneck and a half. Very knowledgable though. This is part 2 of turbine class. The best part of the trip is hanging out with the guys from work. I can't say they are exactly the type of people I will hang out with every weekend, but they sure were entertaining.



The last night in Milwaukee was cool as I got to go to an annual Italian fest and catch a reggae band playing at a local hang out spot later that night.

July 21st, 2006 - Packed up and decided to grab lunch before heading to the airport. "Simple lunch will do", I thought to myself. Although I hated the food in the hotel's restaurant, it would have to do for that day. But to my surprise, 3 of the patrons were the girls that we had met in the hotel lobby the last couple of nights. (met=hello goodbye). After much cool composure and exchange of smile, I had to go but decided to bless one of them and paid for her meal without her knowledge. So I left Milwaukee with that hanging in mid air because I don't think she even knew my name or anything else but the fact that I just paid for her lunch and we will never meet again...silly as I laughed at myself but I think it made her day regardless. So I headed to the airport with glee until I saw the plane I had to board to take me to my next stop.


9:00pm Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Sooner state. It was so good to see Steve and Kimber. Steve used to lead worship at our church and left for Taiwan as a missionary. They just had a kid. Ethan. Adorable. Kimber's gift is definitely hospitality. It's always such a blessing to visit with the Morrows.
I was able to visit the church that he was trying to get a job with. Definitely the city with the most beautiful God-loving girls, not that it has anything relevant but just a point that stood out. I guess it is the buckle of the bible belt.
I gave my presentation. It was a disaster because I choked. I was the 3rd speaker and the phone that kept vibrating on my side did not help either! But after that it was a breeze to sit through everybody elses' presentation. Ofcourse I was excited because I knew I was going to see Heather that night. It was a long drive down to Denton, TX but it sure was worth it. I missed her. She definitely has grown a lot and it was interesting to see how well she carried some matured conversation. Her roomate Jenn came with us along with her bf to the japanese steakhouse for dinner. Jenn is a cute little girl with a good
taste in her clothes. Heather has a keen sense of style that exerts enough energy to invite you to talk to her but yet maintaining her posture as a godly lady. hmm...was I trying too hard to come out with the last sentense or did it just come out like it sounded good?

Spent the last night with the Morrow brothers and we hung out at this cool little campus bar and cafe called 7:27. I absolutely love the theme of industrial stainless steel furnishing the rest of the cafe.

July 26th, 2006. Woke up late and missed my flight. That was just dumb. But I managed to purchase another ticket from Southwest. When I got to the counter, the lady with a puzzled look on her face asked..."sonny, are you lost?"
"no maam" I answer.
"I just need to purchase a ticket"
"How old are you? You have to be 16 to fly, sonny"
"(dead silence dagger piercing stare with dropped jaw)maam, I'm 25"

Nevertheless, I got my ticket eventually and headed back to New Orleans. SJ came and picked me up. It was very sweet of her but she got lost and was not able to wait for me. Instead I had to get her out of her lostness. Aw. I miss her. Home sweet home.

God through friends....

Steve and Kimber says: hi
Edmund says: HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: hey man
Steve and Kimber says: kimber saw you online.
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: not often
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: what's shakin?
Edmund says: alot
Steve and Kimber says: like?
Edmund says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: i'm very very very confuse
Steve and Kimber says: about?
Edmund says: confused
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Edmund says: how I have seen God moved in my life..
Edmund says: and how i have seen his face
Edmund says: and know him all these years
Edmund says: and yet, i'm struggling in my faith now
Steve and Kimber says: sorry.
Edmund says: not in salvation or anything
Steve and Kimber says: i know that.
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Edmund says: but just how on earth I can be soooo afraid of life now
Steve and Kimber says: like the future or...
Steve and Kimber says: ?
Edmund says: yea
Edmund says: and present really
Steve and Kimber says: where to go...what to do kinda stuff?
Edmund says: um...
Edmund says: not so much of that...
Edmund says: but why am i feeling like i'm stuck in a rut
Edmund says: i'm not happy...
Edmund says: and granted i know he's bringing me closer to him
Edmund says: but am i suppose to alter something in my life??
Steve and Kimber says: does it seem to control you...when you are happy...when you aren't?
Edmund says: ?
Steve and Kimber says: does your mood dictate your relationship with Him?
Edmund says: i honestly don't remember when was the last time I was just happy with my life..
Steve and Kimber says: been there...am there.
Edmund says: no but i think my personality does let my mood dictate it
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: well i'm here with you then
Steve and Kimber says: it's a focus thing i guess.
Edmund says: yea...
Edmund says: i was listening to louie giglio
Steve and Kimber says: is the romance the focus or the situations of life...?
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: and he was talking about "poured out like a drink offering"
Edmund says: and that even through hell or high water
Edmund says: we commit our lives in the Hands of God
Edmund says: scary scary hands
Edmund says: hands that would lead us through the wilderness and by the still waters
Steve and Kimber says: never said it was a walk in the park...more like a wild adventure...
Edmund says: yea... but dude, i'm hurting bro
Steve and Kimber says: exciting, happy,sucks, hurts, bites...all wrapped up.
Edmund says: the sorrowness is killing me sucking my life out
Edmund says: ofcourse it makes me depend on him more
Edmund says: but man talk about ouch
Steve and Kimber says: of course
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: i'm sure you are going through the winds as well
Steve and Kimber says: i guess...
Edmund says: like seeing how God moved in Taiwan
Steve and Kimber says: ive learned something...
Edmund says: and then now....silence..
Steve and Kimber says: for sure...
Edmund says: what's that?
Steve and Kimber says: reading Sacred Romance right now...
Steve and Kimber says: it asks...
Steve and Kimber says: are you the main character of your small off broadway drama or...
Steve and Kimber says: are you a vital character in this epic story where you are not the main character...
Steve and Kimber says: but rather the Hero of the story is Christ...
Steve and Kimber says: changes perspective of my life and how i view it.
Edmund says: I feel like an extra now
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: not so my friend
Edmund says: or maybe the sign board on the road side
Edmund says: haha
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: vital character if ive ever seen one.
Steve and Kimber says: trust me.
Edmund says: even through the silence huh?
Steve and Kimber says: of course...
Steve and Kimber says: not about us...
Steve and Kimber says: thinking...
Edmund says: i guess my flesh is so selfish
Steve and Kimber says: maybe not...
Steve and Kimber says: just dying to have that feeling of alive.
Steve and Kimber says: worthship in the kingdom
Edmund says: YES!!!
Edmund says: if anything...
Edmund says: it's to be whole again
Steve and Kimber says: do you think He sought you out for nothing?
Steve and Kimber says: trust me he is working something backstage...
Steve and Kimber says: (keeping with the broadway thing)
Steve and Kimber says:...lol
Edmund says: lol
Edmund says: wow
Edmund says: thanks
Steve and Kimber says: i always look to David...
Steve and Kimber says: let's see...
Steve and Kimber says: shepherd boy...
Steve and Kimber says: kills a tall dude...
Steve and Kimber says: king...
Steve and Kimber says: ops...first musician to king...
Steve and Kimber says: in a cave...
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: adultery then kills a man...
Edmund says: suffer suffer
Steve and Kimber says: then i ask myself....
Steve and Kimber says: what?
Steve and Kimber says: how is he a man after God's own heart.?
Steve and Kimber says: We need to see ourselves differently.
Steve and Kimber says: start with Christ...
Steve and Kimber says: we...me always start with us.
Edmund says: yea...
Edmund says: i also thought about how he was rejected
Edmund says: by his own ppl
Steve and Kimber says: true
Edmund says: and crucified
Edmund says: and here i am complaining about my pity party
Steve and Kimber says: np
Steve and Kimber says: i do it every day
Edmund says: if anything, he's the pro of sorrow
Steve and Kimber says: me me me
Edmund says: ahaha
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: bet kimber hears all about it
Steve and Kimber says: poor kimber
Steve and Kimber says:...
Edmund says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: behind a great man
Edmund says: there's a greater woman
Steve and Kimber says: is always...
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: now if i can only find mine
Steve and Kimber says: it'll be a good one.
Edmund says: LOL!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: hey...
Steve and Kimber says: have something brewing...can't tell you yet though...
Edmund says: you can't do that!!!
Steve and Kimber says: can.
Edmund says: you alwways do thaT!!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: sorry.
Edmund says: then don't even mention it!!
Steve and Kimber says: i did talk with dennis though.
Steve and Kimber says: about an hour ago
Edmund says: o cool
Edmund says: and?
Steve and Kimber says: no definite answers but...
Steve and Kimber says: ok...can't say anymore.
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: jerk
Steve and Kimber says: love ya man
Edmund says: i can respect that dude
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: just keep me posted man
Steve and Kimber says: can do.
Steve and Kimber says: call you about things later this week.
Edmund says: hey how far is ok city from you?
Steve and Kimber says: 15 mil maybe
Steve and Kimber says: y?
Edmund says: are you gonna be there july 24th?
Edmund says: cos i'm going to ok city for a conference
Edmund says: for 2 nights!
Steve and Kimber says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: !!!!
Steve and Kimber says: what conf?
Edmund says: work man
Steve and Kimber says: oh...boring stuff then
Edmund says: power plant stuff
Edmund says: hahaha
Edmund says: lol
Edmund says: pretty much
Steve and Kimber says: "snoring"
Edmund says: you suck man
Steve and Kimber says: like mexican?
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: food?
Edmund says: hahahahah
Edmund says: mexicans??
Steve and Kimber says: Kimber wants to take you out...
Steve and Kimber says: no...just the food.
Edmund says: HAHAHHAHAHA
Steve and Kimber says: might be mexicans there though.
Steve and Kimber says: nice folk
Edmund says: i can go with a mexican caucasian if you know any
Edmund says: gotta have the white blood in them
Edmund says: hahah
Steve and Kimber says: we have a taiwanese friend coming then...
Edmund says: yea so it's a deal
Edmund says: aw man
Edmund says: so you can't entertain me then?
Steve and Kimber says: oh...wait you hate the whole asian population.
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: HATE????
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: yes...the girl thing.
Edmund says: you definitely suck a big banana now
Steve and Kimber says: we can still entertain.
Steve and Kimber says: of course
Edmund says: o there's a taiwanese girl?
Edmund says: i don;t mind being friendly
Steve and Kimber says: yes...student friend.
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: nice...
Steve and Kimber says: just friends though, ic
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: i'm thru with long distant relationship man
Steve and Kimber says: ic
Edmund says: so yea we can keep in touch
Steve and Kimber says: ok...
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: have something...
Edmund says: but you should know somebody in life church
Steve and Kimber says: i can tell.
Steve and Kimber says: i should
Edmund says: like somebody my age
Edmund says: or younger
Steve and Kimber says: we;
Edmund says: who's perfect for me
Steve and Kimber says: we'll see.
Edmund says: ahah
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: dork
Edmund says: just kidding man
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: desperate side of my hormons
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: ok...listen...................................
Edmund says: ok what can you tell?
Edmund says: reading
Edmund says: ....
Steve and Kimber says: ringing..........................
Steve and Kimber says: second ring...............
Steve and Kimber says: third...............
Steve and Kimber says: answer the phone you dork...
*pickup the phone* end

ahhh... my good friends Steve and Kimber.

Life's Tough, Wear A Helmet

It comes to you at 100mph and without a warning, swallows you whole, chew you out and spits you out like nobody's business. Nobody promised that life would be beautiful. It's an issue with perspective. What you magnify is how you would see your life as. I personally believe that life could very well be tough but the Lord continues to shower us with the beautiful days. Some days, like today, are less than perfect. But the one thing that keeps ringing in my head is that all I go through, big or small, it leads me back to Him. He has a way of making my heart yearn, long for something more....something more to this life that I am currently adapting to.
The sleepless nights that can't be cured proves to be road signs that directs me back to the way.