God through friends....

Steve and Kimber says: hi
Edmund says: HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: hey man
Steve and Kimber says: kimber saw you online.
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: not often
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: what's shakin?
Edmund says: alot
Steve and Kimber says: like?
Edmund says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: i'm very very very confuse
Steve and Kimber says: about?
Edmund says: confused
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Edmund says: how I have seen God moved in my life..
Edmund says: and how i have seen his face
Edmund says: and know him all these years
Edmund says: and yet, i'm struggling in my faith now
Steve and Kimber says: sorry.
Edmund says: not in salvation or anything
Steve and Kimber says: i know that.
Steve and Kimber says: ...
Edmund says: but just how on earth I can be soooo afraid of life now
Steve and Kimber says: like the future or...
Steve and Kimber says: ?
Edmund says: yea
Edmund says: and present really
Steve and Kimber says: where to go...what to do kinda stuff?
Edmund says: um...
Edmund says: not so much of that...
Edmund says: but why am i feeling like i'm stuck in a rut
Edmund says: i'm not happy...
Edmund says: and granted i know he's bringing me closer to him
Edmund says: but am i suppose to alter something in my life??
Steve and Kimber says: does it seem to control you...when you are happy...when you aren't?
Edmund says: ?
Steve and Kimber says: does your mood dictate your relationship with Him?
Edmund says: i honestly don't remember when was the last time I was just happy with my life..
Steve and Kimber says: been there...am there.
Edmund says: no but i think my personality does let my mood dictate it
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: well i'm here with you then
Steve and Kimber says: it's a focus thing i guess.
Edmund says: yea...
Edmund says: i was listening to louie giglio
Steve and Kimber says: is the romance the focus or the situations of life...?
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: and he was talking about "poured out like a drink offering"
Edmund says: and that even through hell or high water
Edmund says: we commit our lives in the Hands of God
Edmund says: scary scary hands
Edmund says: hands that would lead us through the wilderness and by the still waters
Steve and Kimber says: never said it was a walk in the park...more like a wild adventure...
Edmund says: yea... but dude, i'm hurting bro
Steve and Kimber says: exciting, happy,sucks, hurts, bites...all wrapped up.
Edmund says: the sorrowness is killing me sucking my life out
Edmund says: ofcourse it makes me depend on him more
Edmund says: but man talk about ouch
Steve and Kimber says: of course
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: i'm sure you are going through the winds as well
Steve and Kimber says: i guess...
Edmund says: like seeing how God moved in Taiwan
Steve and Kimber says: ive learned something...
Edmund says: and then now....silence..
Steve and Kimber says: for sure...
Edmund says: what's that?
Steve and Kimber says: reading Sacred Romance right now...
Steve and Kimber says: it asks...
Steve and Kimber says: are you the main character of your small off broadway drama or...
Steve and Kimber says: are you a vital character in this epic story where you are not the main character...
Steve and Kimber says: but rather the Hero of the story is Christ...
Steve and Kimber says: changes perspective of my life and how i view it.
Edmund says: I feel like an extra now
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: not so my friend
Edmund says: or maybe the sign board on the road side
Edmund says: haha
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: vital character if ive ever seen one.
Steve and Kimber says: trust me.
Edmund says: even through the silence huh?
Steve and Kimber says: of course...
Steve and Kimber says: not about us...
Steve and Kimber says: thinking...
Edmund says: i guess my flesh is so selfish
Steve and Kimber says: maybe not...
Steve and Kimber says: just dying to have that feeling of alive.
Steve and Kimber says: worthship in the kingdom
Edmund says: YES!!!
Edmund says: if anything...
Edmund says: it's to be whole again
Steve and Kimber says: do you think He sought you out for nothing?
Steve and Kimber says: trust me he is working something backstage...
Steve and Kimber says: (keeping with the broadway thing)
Steve and Kimber says:...lol
Edmund says: lol
Edmund says: wow
Edmund says: thanks
Steve and Kimber says: i always look to David...
Steve and Kimber says: let's see...
Steve and Kimber says: shepherd boy...
Steve and Kimber says: kills a tall dude...
Steve and Kimber says: king...
Steve and Kimber says: ops...first musician to king...
Steve and Kimber says: in a cave...
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: adultery then kills a man...
Edmund says: suffer suffer
Steve and Kimber says: then i ask myself....
Steve and Kimber says: what?
Steve and Kimber says: how is he a man after God's own heart.?
Steve and Kimber says: We need to see ourselves differently.
Steve and Kimber says: start with Christ...
Steve and Kimber says: we...me always start with us.
Edmund says: yea...
Edmund says: i also thought about how he was rejected
Edmund says: by his own ppl
Steve and Kimber says: true
Edmund says: and crucified
Edmund says: and here i am complaining about my pity party
Steve and Kimber says: np
Steve and Kimber says: i do it every day
Edmund says: if anything, he's the pro of sorrow
Steve and Kimber says: me me me
Edmund says: ahaha
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: bet kimber hears all about it
Steve and Kimber says: poor kimber
Steve and Kimber says:...
Edmund says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: yes?
Edmund says: behind a great man
Edmund says: there's a greater woman
Steve and Kimber says: is always...
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: now if i can only find mine
Steve and Kimber says: it'll be a good one.
Edmund says: LOL!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: hey...
Steve and Kimber says: have something brewing...can't tell you yet though...
Edmund says: you can't do that!!!
Steve and Kimber says: can.
Edmund says: you alwways do thaT!!!!!
Steve and Kimber says: sorry.
Edmund says: then don't even mention it!!
Steve and Kimber says: i did talk with dennis though.
Steve and Kimber says: about an hour ago
Edmund says: o cool
Edmund says: and?
Steve and Kimber says: no definite answers but...
Steve and Kimber says: ok...can't say anymore.
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: jerk
Steve and Kimber says: love ya man
Edmund says: i can respect that dude
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: just keep me posted man
Steve and Kimber says: can do.
Steve and Kimber says: call you about things later this week.
Edmund says: hey how far is ok city from you?
Steve and Kimber says: 15 mil maybe
Steve and Kimber says: y?
Edmund says: are you gonna be there july 24th?
Edmund says: cos i'm going to ok city for a conference
Edmund says: for 2 nights!
Steve and Kimber says: dude
Steve and Kimber says: !!!!
Steve and Kimber says: what conf?
Edmund says: work man
Steve and Kimber says: oh...boring stuff then
Edmund says: power plant stuff
Edmund says: hahaha
Edmund says: lol
Edmund says: pretty much
Steve and Kimber says: "snoring"
Edmund says: you suck man
Steve and Kimber says: like mexican?
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: food?
Edmund says: hahahahah
Edmund says: mexicans??
Steve and Kimber says: Kimber wants to take you out...
Steve and Kimber says: no...just the food.
Edmund says: HAHAHHAHAHA
Steve and Kimber says: might be mexicans there though.
Steve and Kimber says: nice folk
Edmund says: i can go with a mexican caucasian if you know any
Edmund says: gotta have the white blood in them
Edmund says: hahah
Steve and Kimber says: we have a taiwanese friend coming then...
Edmund says: yea so it's a deal
Edmund says: aw man
Edmund says: so you can't entertain me then?
Steve and Kimber says: oh...wait you hate the whole asian population.
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: HATE????
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: yes...the girl thing.
Edmund says: you definitely suck a big banana now
Steve and Kimber says: we can still entertain.
Steve and Kimber says: of course
Edmund says: o there's a taiwanese girl?
Edmund says: i don;t mind being friendly
Steve and Kimber says: yes...student friend.
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: nice...
Steve and Kimber says: just friends though, ic
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: i'm thru with long distant relationship man
Steve and Kimber says: ic
Edmund says: so yea we can keep in touch
Steve and Kimber says: ok...
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: have something...
Edmund says: but you should know somebody in life church
Steve and Kimber says: i can tell.
Steve and Kimber says: i should
Edmund says: like somebody my age
Edmund says: or younger
Steve and Kimber says: we;
Edmund says: who's perfect for me
Steve and Kimber says: we'll see.
Edmund says: ahah
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: dork
Edmund says: just kidding man
Steve and Kimber says: lol
Edmund says: desperate side of my hormons
Edmund says: lol
Steve and Kimber says: ok...listen...................................
Edmund says: ok what can you tell?
Edmund says: reading
Edmund says: ....
Steve and Kimber says: ringing..........................
Steve and Kimber says: second ring...............
Steve and Kimber says: third...............
Steve and Kimber says: answer the phone you dork...
*pickup the phone* end

ahhh... my good friends Steve and Kimber.

Life's Tough, Wear A Helmet

It comes to you at 100mph and without a warning, swallows you whole, chew you out and spits you out like nobody's business. Nobody promised that life would be beautiful. It's an issue with perspective. What you magnify is how you would see your life as. I personally believe that life could very well be tough but the Lord continues to shower us with the beautiful days. Some days, like today, are less than perfect. But the one thing that keeps ringing in my head is that all I go through, big or small, it leads me back to Him. He has a way of making my heart yearn, long for something more....something more to this life that I am currently adapting to.
The sleepless nights that can't be cured proves to be road signs that directs me back to the way.